Perspective

  Moving house isn't an unusual thing. Especially if you're me. I moved around a lot as a child, living overseas for over 6 years, growing up around different cultures. Back in Scotland, I've been 'home' for 8 years and living under the roof I'm currently writing under for 7 of those. This is the longest I've ever been in one place.
  I'm starting my second year of University in a week, so when it became clear we were definitely moving in October I had a dilemma: should I move with my family or get my own place? I've decided now to move with my family. I'm closer to church, and not too far from Uni either.
  This still won't make it easy to move; I think if I'm completely honest I will miss this place. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited for more space and the prospect of lodgers coming to live with us among other things. After taking so long to adjust back to the UK in this house and having so many adolescent struggles in this room, this space has become a big a part of me. I've really encountered God between these walls too, and learned to know Him more than ever before in my life. This in itself has been a struggle which has made me the person I am today.

  I feel restless here now. I need more space and want to start a fresh chapter.

  I feel excited too; I'm part of a great group of guys at church who are all accountable to one another and live life to the fullest. We're there for each other all the time and our faith develops so well when we're together. Iron sharpens iron. I'll be seeing them a lot more this year, living out life the way God intended, and the way Jesus lived with his disciples.

  I feel nostalgic, disappointed and sad as well. For the things that have happened here, for the things that never did, and for the emotional and spiritual pain which I've experienced over these 7 years.

  It's as I'm writing I realise how significant the number 7 is in biblical terms. Specifically in terms of waiting. In Genesis, Jacob was told to wait for 7 years before marrying Rachel. In reality he had to wait a great deal longer than that, but I feel this is significant as a representation of what may be happening now. It's time for that new chapter and fresh start. Whatever's going to happen in these coming years is going to be great, and I can't wait to see what unfolds.

  In a fairly minimalistic way, a lot of clutter seems to be getting cleared. Emotionally, spiritually, and now physically as I prepare for the move. This process may take some time, though I look forward to the freedom the outcome will produce.



  This has been incredibly useful for me to process things. I might return more often to lay out my thoughts and get a good idea of where I actually stand with things. A better name for this blog then, would be 'Perspective'.

Over and out,
Sam